Since 2009, the holiday season has been a challenge for me. Regardless of my mother's Cancer diagnosis, I was not prepared for her death and especially verklempt when it came to living life without her. Christmas was my mother's most favorite holiday, and heading into December always leaves a bit of a knot in my throat.
In many ways, the 2013 holiday season has proven no different. However, there are a couple of ways that I am choosing something different this year. First, I am choosing to honor my mother by giving to others. I don't just mean physical gifts, but also the gifts that have no price - listening to, comforting, cheering on, forgiving, supporting and loving others. I'm not a woman of financial means, but I do have endless emotional means to offer.
A second way I am dealing with this holiday season differently this year is that I am mindful of every day and the new opportunities I am presented with. This is an outlook I hope to continue in 2014. I know every day is not necessarily going to be a rock star kind of day, but it can definitely be fun. Tragedy and loss happen, but the world does not stop turning. I feel sad and lost at times without my mother, but that's normal.
Life goes on and it goes on how we choose. So this year, in honor of my mother, I choose joy.
Happy holidays, everyone! I hope that no matter what your faith or belief is that this most wonderful time of year is truly that for you - wonderful and full of joy.